I thought I was losing my mind, soon as I turned 40, I started to notice changes in my body. We had just moved to the country on 8 acres of heaven. Fresh air, open fields and finally my own barn. So then why couldn’t I get to sleep? I felt run down all the time.
Taking naps didn’t work. I started to think maybe it was the well water. I started asking my family for suggestions. After all, what’s the benefit of having so many cousins and aunts, if I couldn’t get some of their wisdom? Heck, half of them were already menopausing. “Get the water tested”, is all I kept hearing. Aside from some iron the water came back in the normal range. As a precaution, I still put filters on all the faucets.
I found a nice one at Bed Bath and Beyond for the shower nozzle. My husband thought I was going mad as well. I thought maybe if we diet, change our food a bit, then I’d get some more energy and lose a little weight. But when I started throwing out my husband’s favorite food and going organic he just about flipped. When I went totally vegan he thought that this was just a step too far.
It Wasn’t Enough..
Something was off, I kept getting weird headaches and lately it seemed more hair kept clogging the drain. Well I figured I am not 20 anymore, so not being able to concentrate should be normal too right? Even though my muscles ached, and I mean all of them, I put on a brave face.
When I tossed and turned at night, I’d go catch a late, late, late show on the couch. For a year I hid it as best as I could. But one day coming out of the shower my husband, the drama queen, stared at me freakishly.
I thought to myself, “What, the towel slipping or something?” He handed me a mirror and walked me to the vanity. There on the back of my head was a 3″ bald patch. How did I not notice it before? That’s when we both freaked. The first thought on my mind? “Oh please don’t let it be cancer.” I started doing some research online and what I found was something else, hypothyroid imbalance. It fit! I finally found something that all my symptoms fit. I really wasn’t going crazy.
I wish I could say what came next was a simple process but the fact is this condition isn’t one size fits all. Yeah we all know that one right? It wasn’t as simple as taking one magic pill a day, it simply wasn’t. I went to the Doctors office and got tested. My TSH levels weren’t great seemed high as my score was 5.828.
My doctor prescribed a pill called Methimazole 30 mg. We tried this dosage at first to see how well my body tolerated it. I think I lasted about 2 minutes. I got hives a few weeks in, felt like I was crawling in my skin. I went back to the Dr and she lowered the dosage to 10mg. 5mg in the am then 5mg in the evening I still didn’t feel like myself.
Feeling Depressed Was Alien to Me
I just wanted to go outside spend time with my horses. The fact was, this wasn’t going away it was something I was going to have to manage. My doctor was very supportive, I was happy at least we could keep trying to find the right cocktail, the right solution for me. She went on to tell me about beta blockers to manage my high blood pressure and managing the other symptoms.
We finally decided to add something else, so she changed it up a bit, now I also take NSIDS, to help with the aches and inflammations. I also take an occasionally low dose of dexamethasone that seems to help on the days the ache still screams at me.
Now I can get some sleep at night. I even lost a little weight after joining yoga. I don’t know if it was the combination of treatments for hyperthyroidism, the new food diet, the anti- inflammatory pills or yoga that did it but I was glad to feel more like myself again. I still can’t seem to get my husband to join yoga with me but I am hopeful. Now if we could only keep my husband’s snoring down to a calm roar then we’d have something.